In the summer of 2004, I was taking the ACT workshop in the immersion program in Baruch College. I studied hard to prepare for the exam through the whole section. My instructor told me that I would pass the ACT this time after he read some of my essays. Also, I felt that I was ready to take the exam.

On July 29, 2004, I had self-confident to take the ACT exam because I knew the format of ACT. I read the all the proposals carefully and chose the one that I had more information to write. After I finished the exam, my instructor told me that the result would be given on July 30, 2004 by phone call. I told myself that I did not care when the result would be given because I am one hundred percent sure that I did well on my exam and I would pass it. This was the best exam that I have taken before. I arranged my time very well. I had many materials to discuss and support my topic. I finished my essay twenty minute early. Therefore, I had twenty minutes to do the grammar check and add more information.

Next day, when I called the immersion program in Baruch College, the staff told me that I failed the ACT exam because my essay was out of topic. When I got this result, I told myself that was impossible. I convinced myself that the staff must make a mistake. Therefore, I called the immersion program again and got the same result, I failed the exam. At that moment, I began to realize that I was the loser. I was upset and felt helpless. I felt that I did not deserve to fail my exam because I worked hard on my study. I did not miss any class and I wrote all the topics that my instructor gave in the class.

Several days after I learned that I did not pass the ACT exam, I could not help myself to accept the truth. It was too painful for me. I did not talk to my friends on the phone and hang out with them during these days because I needed several days to build up my confidence and become myself. Also, I was worry about my future life. I thought that I would drop out of school and find a job outside of New York State in order to help my parents’ economy burden.