When I write, it feels like I'm going into another world which is my world and no one is allowed in my world but me and my most inner thoughts. When I write it's away of expressing myself, it helps me to say things that I would never say aloud. Or in my sleep or anywhere else. Not to many people have read my writing like I said, it's very personal to me but, for the ones that have read a poem or a letter or something they all tell me that I write beautifully and I should think about really getting into it and making it a full time thing. When I write it's not just poetry that I write, I write numerous things such as a word that I need to remember, a song I hope to one day hear on the radio, I write scripts, I write short stories. There's numerous things that I love to do with writing. Lately if some one ask me, what do I do for a living? I tell them I'm a writer, which is true, I just haven't been published, yet!
I remember the first piece of writing I ever wrote it was a poem for my mother, and it was call "Oh Sweet Mother", it was a piece that I will always remember because it was to be put on my obituary and it went like this " Oh sweet mother please dont weep now that I closed my eyes and went to sleep, I know one day we'll surely meet, so don't you worry cause I'm in my white sheet. My lord he holds me closely by, so please, oh sweet mother dont you cry, your tears and sorrow won't bring me back, and my love for you will never slack, in my eyes you'll always be, my loving, oh sweet mother truely, I wish I could turn back the hands of time when I was young and you were in your prime, I would tell you time and time again I love you always to the bitter end". I wrote this poem sitting at the dining room table of my aunt Mattie's house, and when I finished I asked my mother " if she wanted to hear something I wrote " she said "yes" so I read her my poem. When I finished reading her my writing and I looked at her, she had a very angry look on her face, so I asked her what was wrong and she said "why the hell would you write something like that" and you know what, I could not answer her. At the age of seventeen, to tell my mother 'I wanted these words to be put on my obituary', would have definitely caused her to make an appointment with the neighborhood psychiatrist immediately. I wasn't suicidial or anything it's just that I was a very depressed child growing up. I felt as if I was always unwanted always put to the side or to the back and forgottten about. For starters I never ever knew Richard Jackson. Richard Jackson is the man that i would be calling daddy if he just would have gave a damn. Growing up for me was very difficult for reasons i would never understand until my adult years. From my oldest sister Yolanda, until the fourth child born which is the one right above me named Kino,all of them had the same father.Than came me and then it is Brickett, who also has her own dad. at the same time it was a beautiful thing. can appreciate the sacrifices that my moms, a single parent to six children, had to make for me and my siblinwith all these emotions running thru me and I had no outlet for them but to put them in words, so thats what I did.
After that, I promised never ever let anyone else read my writings again unless someone happens to find where I hid them or usually kept them.
If it weren't for me being able to put my thoughts into words and express myself thru writing, I truely believe I would have gone insane. when I'm angry I write my most powerful words ever and I don't know why that is but it'swhen I am the most creative. Some people write in rhythmic form and some people write in spiritual form, me, my writing is both. my words are pure and full of things that I have lived thru or would like to see happen for my child and me.
One day I'm going to become very successful and when I do I know that writing will be a major part in that success.
Thank you very much for reading my writing and I hope you 've enjoyed it as much as I do.
position paper on the Legalization of Marijuana
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